How we lost the Wandering Philosopher and Other Poems

    by Amlanjyoti Goswami

    Mind Matter

    He was thinking of a sensory tool that could turn Descartes on his head. Microbiologists had been saying the gut controls the mind. For years, romantics and theologists believed there lived a heart somewhere, outside veins and arteries. He didn’t need to invent Freud and touch libido to reach there, the rage of the moment. The mind – as an extension of hands and feet – a river flowing neurons, electrons, synergies, synapses that connected one complex ecosystem to another, like an Amazonian rain forest. But who would be there to listen? Our ears heard what we wanted to. Our voices spoke what we thought. This was called choice. The dichotomy was left unattended. Mind-body, heart-hand. This brought him to Tagore, Illich and Gandhi –all speaking on education. No, this was not a school project. His scientist brain told him about the utility of finding Alan Turing in a wall hanging. His algorithms had long outrun him in their ability to run engaged permutations of predictive thinking. His AI knew the solution before it knew the problem. He was thinking of a way to feel time, not as discrete concrete structured blocks measured in time sheets but as rivulets of feeling, moments meeting moments, like Michelangelo’s fingertips. He thought of biophilia, Gaia, the rest of indigenous wisdom, how we were strands in a larger, connected, yet dissonant universe, all beads and atoms and neurosis and what next. That too wasn’t his project. He wanted to understand synesthesia, make it predictable, as a signal from the fingertip, perhaps his left thumb, the one that would not bleed even when pricked. Or as the embarrassment of serendipity, just before it happened, possibly at a Board meeting. Something that went beyond intuitive pattern recognition. This was strikingly Darwinian to some, but to him this was a lifetime’s memory, treasured like the ghost of Funes the Memorious, a product of Borges’ brain. It would remind him of oranges, when there were apples at the breakfast table. It would tell him good is sometimes great. It would walk into the classroom with crystal ball eyes, tell him if it would be a good class or another desperate one. No one could share these thoughts with him. He wondered if he should simply call it an equation, or if there was more to it. Last time he felt like this, his memory cells were breathing flowers, fresh bougainvillea hanging from the windows of his soul. That was not what he was thinking. The last time he thought of this, he knew there was something inside gnawing at him, asking for a way out. And they simply called it psychology. That was an embedded system. The materiality of being engulfed his senses like a premonition. Someone once called it a living breathing hypothesis. No one had yet emerged out of stone. That was the fundamental basis of life, to others still primitive thinking. What would emerge from this, no one knew, not even him. But he knew the genie was already out of the bottle. It was only a matter of asking what the bottle was, what the genie wanted to do next. It was a little hard to know, because it meant tapping those fingers. The brain resided elsewhere. It had changed direction, like the wind, as if to say et tu. A chorus still rang inside. Symphony of the elements. Beethoven had merged into those clouds.

    The Taste of Living


    I can still taste life
    Early morning, late evening, whenever in-between.

    Gold streams my morning door
    Fresh as prayer.

    All day I seek to find that feeling.
    As night changes to day.

    Afternoon tastes different.
    Its limpid air, languid and redolent

    Its magic solitary and ordinary as the passing sun.
    Evenings are best. The quiet undertow

    Keens in anticipation
    Lapping at the waters, tasting fullness of being.

    Soon it will be dark.
    Night breathes a strange silence in.

    The silence will reach my heart, prise open vast empty spaces.
    I will be a stroller on a foreign shore.


    No taste in my tongue.
    I can’t tell salt from sweet, tea from coffee.

    Can’t smell too. If there were noxious fumes around me
    I would think rose.

    I rely on memory – my only friend –
    For all those finer details.


    To get worse
    I get better

    Cure for an ulcer never found

    Make it simple.
    A sandwich, nothing special.

    Cucumber salad
    Boiled potato & lettuce

    Mayo for taste but you can
    Do without it.

    Try out other salads with the usual ingredients.
    As long as it takes, to make it.

    Sometimes an hour sometimes a life
    And then eat slowly, you have all the time

    And all day to chew it.
    Sometimes, you can take a little more –

    Maybe green chilli but better to avoid
    All spices till you recover

    And stay off spirits because one never knows
    Where they are hiding.

    A salmon sandwich is expensive.
    But once in a while everything is good

    Even anger which you should now curb to sublime perfection.
    Don’t let it rise from the stomach
    That’s where they should be.
    Anger reaches the head early and causes trouble –

    High BP & sullen kidney.
    Thank life for giving life.

    Thank those with fellow feeling who care.
    Yes, you can have the cup of tea, without milk and sugar

    And the occasional coffee too.
    My fee is the usual two fifty, but today’s session is for free.

    How we lost the Wandering Philosopher

    After three days and three nights
    He woke up.

    Asked for water, thirsty for breath.
    We gave him air, gave him water.

    He smiled and said he needed a drink.
    We tried reasoning with him

    Said it was too early and first he must
    Get well                 start walking                 get in shape.

    But he waved his hand
    And said: what there is, there is.

    And pointing to his liver
    He said he knew its ways more than anyone else

    And promptly dozed off again.
    Soon a doctor came on his rounds and banished us

    To the faraway waiting room
    Where we had parked for the night

    From where you could see
    The hill twinkling.

    On the seventh day, we took him home
    On the eleventh, he went to work

    By the fourteenth, we forgot about him
    Till he asked us, one day over the phone

    If we knew the meaning of meaning.
    This is when we gave up on him

    And started looking after ourselves instead.
    Apparently, he took the plunge seriously, into philosophy

    Into time, into wisdom
    And god knows where else he went next.

    When we went to see him next
    On the 51st day, he was not there.

    His door was locked and neighbours said
    He had taken his belongings as well

    Also his diary, a ready to use toolkit
    New address unknown.

    And he disappeared from our lives
    As soon as he had once appeared

    Wearing a straw hat and a toothless smile
    Asking if we knew Wittgenstein

    And telling us stories of his interview
    And how the job was fixed, in a quiet moment,

    Revealing that the mouth of the universe was actually
    Like a rose, pink and lush with meaning

    And that he liked probing a little more.
    He was looking for time, he said.

    And that was when we realised
    He was at heart a wanderer and not so much a friend

    As a duty-bound discoverer of truth
    That lived by street corners, huddled in winter blankets

    Or basking for all to see, in summer sun
    Like the headlines of our daily newspaper

    A vagabond wandering in dim lit streets
    Babbling about the end of the world

    That has been postponed
    By another season.

    Author’s Bio:

    Amlanjyoti Goswami’s new book of poetry, Vital Signs (Poetrywala) follows his widely reviewed collection, River Wedding (Poetrywala). Published in journals and anthologies across the world, including Poetry, The Poetry Review, Penguin Vintage, Rattle and Sahitya Akademi, he is also a Best of the Net and Pushcart nominee. His work has appeared on street walls of Christchurch, buses in Philadelphia, exhibitions in Johannesburg and an e-gallery in Brighton. He has reviewed poetry for Modern Poetry in Translation and Review 31. He has read at various places, including Delhi, Bangalore, New York, Chandigarh and Boston. He grew up in Guwahati and lives in Delhi.

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